after a fantabulous and interesting start to the new year, i've realized that not having a new year's resolution just won't fly. not that i'm someone who actively keeps up with their resolutions, but perhaps the exercise in self reflection will prove beneficial.
i feel like i've learned something new every day so far this new year, about human nature, about my own nature. While on a certain level i crave stability, I realize that i'm also an excitable person who's always looking for something new, something exciting. I'm all about self-growth and development, about having enriching life-changing experiences. This also means that i'm far more impractical than most, and if i continue on in this manner, i put myself at greater risk for detrimental outcomes. And, for the most part, I feel comfortable with this. I've been hurt before, and it takes time for that hurt to heal, but heal i did, and if anything i'm in a better position to bounce back now then i had been in previous experiences.
I also have more responsibilities: School isn't just a matter of attending classes, but the nature of the program insists that i perform and produce for the professors, and my career training is picking up speed. my parents rely on me to take care of our house and finances in the states, and of course, the doggy needs to be fed and taken out everyday.
from this, i have relatively simple resolutions for myself this year. they're rather abstract and vague, but i'll come up with more concrete goals to help guide the process.
1. work f'ing hard. graduate degrees aren't handed out like candy.
2. don't be afraid, but don't be rash. evaluate each opportunity, and calculate the risk.
3. be self-aware. this ties into #2- be conscious of what and what is not acceptable for myself. i value highly the opinions and thoughts of those i love, but i need to think about what they say in the context of what is best for me, and ultimately, what i want for myself.
hardly ground-breaking stuff, but it's a start :)
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